It's up to her, what happens. She holds the cards. And although it makes my stomach turn and my heart ache, that's the way it has to be. I owe her that. I owe her everything, really. I don't deserve her forgiveness, but it's all I want. I don't know if I'm naive to think she'll take me back, put I have to keep the hope going. I'm not strong enough to let her go. At least I know I've done what I can. I've told her how I feel, and that's all I can do for now, except wait.
Until then, I'll just keep smoking cigarettes, cancer or not, and listen to a hell of a lot of A Fine Frenzy.
Yeah. That's what I'll do. I can't face any of my friends, yet, so the company of my music will have to do.
You deserve happiness, whether or not I'm gonna be a part of it.
I'm crossing all my fingers and toes. The calm before the storm is never easy.
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