A weekend to remember

This weekend's been s o awesome. I went to a huge house in Sorø with my classmates, from friday to saturday, where we got extremely drunk, played playstation and listened to great music. The next day, me and best friend started drinking at about 1PM and I didn't stop until 6AM, the next day. Janne picked us up and we drove to my place, where Tobias joined us for some cherrywine/cola, before we went over to Sabine, to dress up like a group of zombies, for the Halloween party at CC. We looked awesome, btw! Pictures are comin' right up. Since I was already drunk - and had been the whole day - it didn't take me long to get so shitfaced I can't remember half of the night. That's probably not all bad, considering my camera died and the bar ran out of whiskey. Not good! Well, all in all, I wish I could turn back time and expereince this weekend all over again. Janne and Toby slept at my place, and we woke up looking like we really were dead, but started curing the nausea with a horror movie and a lot of soda. This sunday had all the potential in the world, to be a great day, but when Janne and Toby went home, all the potential disappeared. Now I'm just sitting here, reminiscing all by myself, with the company of my restlessness. I wish I could go to Haslev and start a hangover-marathon with Janne, like we did a few weekends ago. She's quite addicting, really. "I'm smitten, I'm bitten, I'm hooked, I'm cooked, I'm stuck like glue! You make me, make me hungry for you."

Well, we took about 100 photos on the trip, but they aren't all that funny or interesting, so I thought 4 would be enough. Drunk people tend to take crappy pictures. :'D

And now, for some CC pictures! Creepy looking zombies coming up;

Rambling, followed by music

When I look back on the last few months, a lot has happened and changed in my life. It sort of makes me anxious, but at the same time, even though I can't quite figure out how I'm feeling right now, I still feel like I've come far. I spent - what seemed to me - a long time beating myself up over me and my ex girlfriend's break up, and as soon as I decided that life was too short for that, new people started entering my life. I met Joy, this sweet, sweet girl, who helped me a lot, in so little time. I guess you could say we were both healthy and not healthy for each other, but I'm glad it all worked out for the best, in the end. She's happy with her girlfriend now, and I wish her all the best, 'cause she's still a dear friend to me, even though we don't talk that much, atm. But what's even more surprising, is how fast I started letting go of my ex girlfriend, sort of "over night". I went from hating myself and begging her to take me back, to now feeling like it's a closed chapter in my life. A chapter that I'll always learn something from, but not a chapter that I need in my future. Then something strange happened. I met Janne. And I started out thinking "wow, this girl's a lot like me, in the strangest ways", and she's already a big part of my weeks and thoughts. She's really growing on me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is.. It really is strange how the greatest and sweetest people walk into your life, when you least expect it. I can't complain, really.

Just felt like getting that out. Yup. That felt good. ^^

Anyway, since this post has been nothing more than random rambling for no one to enjoy, I figured I'd end it with three songs I'm quite addicted to, atm. Hope that helps this post become a little more exciting! Haha. I'd forgotten all about Mae, until a few days ago, when I decided to find some of my old, old music and listen to it. Some of their new music is quite amazing. Well, almost every song they've made is!

Visions of pills that put you in a loving trance

I've spent most of my night editing pictures and listening to Mae. My inner perfectionist got the best of me, seeing how I spent this much time editing, and now I feel like I haven't spent the night doing anything at all. And that's sort of left me with this empty feeling, somewhere in my stomach. Perhaps it'll go away once I've posted these photos and started getting mentally ready for school, tomorrow. I'd much rather be in Haslev to cheer her up. Oh well, hopefully I'll get the chance soon. ^^, So, as I just said, I thought I'd share a few of the photos I took today, when I fooled around with the whiskey Janne bought me, and my mother's pills, that I just think are too cute. They're nothing special, but here they are;

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The thing is, that to most people this probably seems like I'm - well, we're - just in a hurry to move on and get over the ghosts of our past, but I truly don't think that's what we're doing. I don't need a rebound, and I wasn't looking for anything when she walked into my life. It's like they say, you shouldn't throw away the possibility of happiness. And I'm sure as hell not gonna do that, just because it somehow seems like I'm just moving onto the next girl. That's not what i'm doing. I can still work on myself, work on being strong and independent, while I have this sweet girl to feed me happiness. So why shouldn't I? The truth is, we're probably more alike than we've yet to know. And that doesn't have to be a bad thing. I don't think it will be.

Everyone's allowed to dream, right?

Some day, I'd like to make lyrics and melodies as magic as my favourite bands and artists do. Lyrics that move people, that they can relate to. Words don't always come easy, to me, but when they do, it feels darn great. At the time, I'm sort of feeling a writer's block, and I'm not loving it. I miss writing my small, crappy poems and texts that no one but me would read. Haven't done that for a while. Maybe it's because I always feel like writing them when I'm sad and down. And that's not the case, right now. At least I'm more happy than I'm sad. I really don't have the time to be a downer, when there's sweet people and beautiful music to cheer me up. Nope. (Remember that, Laura!)

It's a dark night on the West Coast
Then a soft breeze as the sun rose
Then the phone rang, like a gunshot
Like a siren on the beach rock
There's a message at the river
A certain package here to the deliver
When the day breaks after nightfall
I will be there, you know I will.

*sigh* Bring me inspiration and creativity, please!

Long time no see, old friends.

Ahh. I've missed these guys. Their new album "Invented" is just how I hoped it would be. They haven't changed a bit, and I love 'em for that! Sadly, the quality of the song is quite crappy, but it's all I could find. It's still great! Take a listen.

There's the strangest excitement today

Seems like I keep forgetting to blog. I guess I just feel like I'll repeat myself too much, seeing as nothing much has happened, other than a few drunk nights out, with great people, and the fact that I still miss Janne like hell. Luckily, she's on her way home now, and I'm hoping to see her this sunday. Fingers crossed! What would be even greater, was if she was able to come with us to CC, tomorrow. I shouldn't go, considering how broke I am, atm. but I miss CC a lot! Extreme addiction, ftw.

Also, I ordered this awesome t-shirt, a few days ago, to support FCKH8.
It's beautiful and I can't wait to wear it! Buy one, people.

Anyway, nothing new to tell, but I've started listening to a lot of my old music, and I didn't realize how much I've missed the magical feeling AvA's songs give me. They're quite wonderful!

Oh god, I feel like I'm in for it now

And how this kiss will be one, roughly vague.

I swear I'll melt if you touch me at all,

But then I'll ask you to do it again and again.

New perspective

Wow, seems like I haven't blogged in ages. That's a bad thing! Guess I just haven't had the energy. Well, it probably doesn't matter that much, since I mostly blog for myself. People aren't missing out on anything, just because they haven't heard about my life in a few days. Haha.

Well, a few things have happened. Both good and bad. But mostly good, since I'm gonna see it as a positive turning point.

I've decided not to lock myself up. I'm gonna try to look at my life in a positive way, instead of focusing on all the bad, like I always do. That won't get me anywhere. And instead of fearing my next therapy session, I'm gonna embrace it. I have to. If I don't, it won't make a difference. I get these wake up calls all the time. The bad thing is that I tend to fall back into my hole of self-loathing after a while, and then I'm back at square one. I'm gonna try and do it different, this time. Hopefully it'll work. And hopefully I'll get something good out of this holiday, instead of staying alone in my room all week. I should try and make plans with people. Sad thing is that two of the sweetest girls are not home to hang out with me. Best friend is, though. And I think we both need to get out more. Yup. That's my plan.

I should also think about getting some exercise. It's not just a lie that parents tell you, when they say that it's both healthy for your physical and mental health to exercise. It is. I always feel better when I've been outside, even if it's just for a little while. So that's what I'll do.

All in all, nothing interesting to tell, just a bit of optimism in my life, I guess. And I'm counting the days 'til that sweet girl comes home. I miss her.

I should probably end all of my rambling with an upbeat and happy song! Makes me wanna drink and have fun.

What I'll spend my Tuesday doing;

 

Ahhh. I'm already on my way into a coffee trance. I've missed this.

Also, for those of you who don't know the book, Nick Cave "The Death of Bunny Munro"; 

Read it! Right now! I highly recommend it. It's sort of perverted, in the good way.

A breath of sunshine

 

Sort of loving The Raveonettes, atm. I love how most of their songs have quite depressing lyrics, but the voices and melodies are happy-go-lucky. Yum!

I wanna ride with her in uncertain times.

Mouthwatering goodies!

 

 Holy motherlover. I just fell in love with a million tees on Topshop's homepage. These are the ones I love the most. Now I just need about £38578. Anyone feel like donating? Mwaha.

Man, that beat is hard.

My heart's beating extremely fast and hard, and it's making me anxious. The lump in my stomach is back. Don't think it's the same, though. Trying to cure it with some music, to take my mind off things, but it's not working as well as I hoped it would. Confidence is the keyword. But what to do, when you're running low? Seems like all I do these days is trying to convince myself that I don't need anyone to tell me how strong I am, how well I'm doing. But it's not working. I'm just lying to myself. Liar. At least the beat from the speakers are louder than my thoughts. Maybe it'll drown them.
Snap out of it, Laura. This colour isn't good on you.

I'm not good at this. I'm trying to make it clear to you, but I'm afraid to let my guards down, when I don't know what you want. I don't want a let down. But I'm here, if you need me.

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Once in awhile, but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette, nobody's really fooled
I don't want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

When I breathe that little bit of death supposedly cancer-free
Everything they say's got the truth twisted up
But twisted up's what I want, I can't get enough
'Cos even though we know it's all just a big bluff
We just light another up,
We don't give a fuck.

At genkende sig selv i en andens ord.

Hvordan sørger man

når tiden har taget alle tårer

og det blødende sår

efterhånden er blevet et ar?

 © Julie Haas.

(Tjek hellere hendes andre digte, også, hun er talentfuld!) 

Responsibility, where art thou?

Right, so.. I've sort of forgotten to take responsibility for my life, the last few days. And even though it's been fun and I've enjoyed it, I should probably get some structure back in my life, before I end a complete, emotional wreck. Tomorrow's a good day to start, since we're starting on a school project, which is gonna be the most boring thing, ever.

Well, yesterday me and a few classmates decided that we should go to the local bar and get drunk, because we had 1,5 hours to kill, before our english class. After drinking about 3 pints each and making, like, the best english translation, our time was up. Unfortunately, the class got cancelled at the last minute, so we didn't even get to enjoy our drunkness in school. That might've been a good thing, haha. Instead, we decided to go home to one of the boys from my class and drink a few more beers, before we went to the demonstration in Copenhagen. (We were demonstrating against the government's plans about cutting students' money, which would make it impossible for anyone to survive without a full-time job while also going to school. And that's tough!) Well, there were a hell of a lot of people who showed up, so that was great! Hope it made a difference. Mostly we just hung out with Sabine, me and best friend, while drinking some more. After showing our support at the demo (even though we were shitfaced at the time!) we decided to go home to Sabine, to eat and have fun. But best friend was extremely tired, and I felt like being spontaneous, like always. So I decided to take the train to Haslev, to sleep at Janne's place. By that time, I'd been drunk for about 12 hours, so it's quite a miracle that I made it, and that I wasn't even sleepy or nauseous. Awesome! All in all, a fine day and night, filled with spontaneity, great people and beer. I should probably find an AA meeting in the nearest future. Joking, haha. And now, once again, I'll try to find my way back to reality. Wish me luck!

Also, there's this awesome band, Biffy Clyro, who are playing in Vega, Cph, oct. 15th. I'm kinda bummed about the fact that I have no idea who'll go with me. Don't really know that many people who like 'em. (shame on them!) Hoping it works out, I really want to see them again.

Back to reality? No thanks!

Time for a new post, after a long weekend of awesomeness. - I decided not to go on an awesome-rehab, life's too short! So, I spent my weekend getting way too drunk with some of my favourite people, and I loved every minute of it. Friday was spent drinking with a few classmates at my school, and afterwards I took the train to Haslev, to join Janne and Lili for some more (cheap!) drinking. Hadn't seen Lili in a few weeks, so it was great seeing her again, my sweet, asian friend. We slept at Janne's place, and woke up at about 11 AM, because Lili had to go to a birthday party, which we drove her to. The rest of the saturday afternoon was spent watching Janne make sushi for her friend, and getting mentally ready for a wild night at CC, later on. We drove to my place at about 8 PM, to warm up and make ourselves look a bit more sober. At about 9:30 PM we drove to Copenhagen, walked for about a year, to CC, where best friend and Camilla were waiting for us, at "our" table. After about 10 minutes, me and Janne had already taken 3 tequila shots and I drank 2 glasses of whiskey and coke. Great way to start the evening! Well, that wasn't enough, so we took about a dozen more tequila shots, the rest of the night and ended up quite - well, very - shitfaced. Everyone did! Sabine joined us around midnight, and we spent the rest of the night having one, big lesbian orgy. <- Almost a true story! Haha. I had a blast. Me and Janne decided that we weren't ready for school, today/monday, so we took a day off, at Janne's place, watching creepy movies, eating our own weight in junk food and having a lot of fun. I think I could get used to staying home from school, chilling with her! Insanity connection, ftw. Well, that's about what I spent my weekend and monday doing, not that I think anyone's really gonna read all of this! Haha.

Maybe a few pictures from this saturday would make this long, boring post a bit more entertaining. Enjoy!

Cheers, mates!